Weblog

Wednesday, 19 August 2009

  • Wait, stop. What?

    Sometimes, I think everything goes by way to fast. Sometimes I think the world is turning ever so slowly. This year, I plan to work hard if it means keeping myself in a bubble. This year, friends and fun aren't important. I want to excel and get my "A's." I've been slacking off way too much, and did too, too, too many embarrassing things. All my popularity and all can be something great, but education is something they can't take away from me. This year, I have 3 honors and 1 AP with French as an elective. Stick with me,

    -Eve

Tuesday, 30 June 2009

  • Girls are real catty.


    We met when we were around 6 or 7, when we joined the swim team. In the beginning, there were four of us. I don't remember a moment without drama, when all four of us just had some pure fun. It was all a popularity contest. Each move, each comment on myspace, who had more friends, whatever.  We would kick each other during swimming because it could easily be disguised as an "accident." But just to prove the intensity, I ended up with a goggle jammed in my eye and an eventual black eye. Other girls got nosebleeds and whatnot. In the lockerooms, gossip ran nonstop.

    Birthday parties and sleepovers were the worst. I remember Rachel, one of the four, gave me a sanrio coloring kit for my birthday once and I was pretty excited. The moment she stepped out of the room, another girl, came up and whispered in my ear, "I saw that somewhere in her house. Plus, it's pretty ugly, don't you think?" When Rachel came back into the room, my friend suggested that I make an order in which I liked the presents. Before the party, my mom had reminded me that it was the thought that counts.

    At another party, the same girl who whispered in my ear decided to confront Rachel. She yelled at her and screamed and made the rest of us laugh and ridicule Rachel. At some point of our friendship, every one of us has been hated. Where the three of us would just turn on the fourth girl. As time progressed, our tactics would drop lower and lower. From stealing from each other, the rumors, whoever wasn't invited to which party.

    But then we got older, and we started to drift. One of them moved away. One them found a new group of friends. And then it ended up as two of us, becoming really close. Now, she too found a new posse. On our myspaces and to everyone else, we're bestfriends that went to "hell and back." But everyday, I question why we hang onto the superficiality.

Saturday, 20 December 2008

Friday, 19 December 2008

  • If you won a multi-million dollar lottery, what would your first five purchases be?

    1. A Husky puppy with spoiled lifestyle and more dogs~!
    2. Pay off debts.
    3. All the game consoles in the world.
    4. A bigger house. For my future dog&i.
    5. Presents for family and friends.
       

    I just answered this Featured Question; you can answer it too!

  • Blog: 11/28/08

    Today I woke up at 8:30 to go to swim practice. Swimming used to be my life--it was where my friends were, my family, all the fun and love. Although I never made it that far into championships, I still loved every single person there, whether i showed or not. Because we were all a family. It was all so fun because we were on top--we were the fastest so it basically locker room hierarchy.

    >Then times changed. Our coaches rotated and switched about every other month, but our head coach remained the same. But it wasn't just our coaches-- the swimmers rotated too. Pretty soon, the laughing kids graduated and left for college. The kids my age...they just didn't come to practice anymore. So did my best friend. But then again, I guess people change and i accept that.

    >>I was gone from the pool ford 2 weeks, I twisted my ankle. And so i came back a little out of shape, but then...I just felt like i didn't recognize my LIFE. I walked in the pool and it just didn't feel right. The people were different, i barely knew anyone. The people, the rules, the COACHES--they're all so new. Don't get me wrong--I like change. But this. my life.........

    >>>And so a big dog ran by. My new coach was like "oh that is such a beautiful dog!"
    and i said "mhm"
    him: "Look, I can only take only so much attitude from you. I don't need it."
    "no, I was being genuine! I really love dogs.----
    "Whatever. I don't wanna hear it"
    "No really! I do! I love---
    "No (my name), Just whatever. I don't need this shit."


    >>>> so later in the locker room, these girls were out of place. They're just NEW people and acting like they can own me. Can I be anymore blunt?


    The coaches don't know me, I feel like i'm the stupid one. I just don't know whats up with me anymore. People say i'm too mean or i'm too negative. I don't want to be. I want to be nice. I want to be positive. I try so hard sometimes, I'm so lost....

    >>>>>My mother. I feel like I'm drifting away from her. she would rather tell my friend's mothers about anything and not me. Whenever I ask her what she's doing, she always tells me to leave. What happened?

    >>>>>>My father. He's crazy. Literally, whenever a small things ticks him off he goes crazy. He starts punching the wall and goes on crazy rides on his car. He starts breaking everything and screams at everyone and drinks a load of soda.

    >>>>>>>My brother. He's smart, he goes to Berkely. But I don'tthink he knows me. He comes home and he just starts ordering me around and yellling and acts like he's right about everything. i'll admit he is about some cases but he talks to me like he knows my life. My mother likes him best.

    >>>>>>>>My sister. She is so sensitive. She cries at everything. Even when we're not yelling at her, she'll cry if she hears an argument.

    >>>>>>>>>My best friend. I actually don't think she's my best friend, she's just someone i've known for so long. We held on to each other i think because we have nobody else. when life gets rough, we just look at each other. Long story short, she's been living in a bubble her whole life, never exposed to pain or suffering.

    School sucks, I've been trying so so so hard to be nice and try to get some nice friends. Apparently, didn't work out.

    I have two tutoring classes, piano, art, and swimming.


    xoxo,
    L0LA

xxxL0LA

  • Visit xxxL0LA's Xanga Site
    • Name: "Eve"
    • Member Since: 12/19/2008

Archives

Don't worry - your calendar is here… to see it in action just click "Save" above and refresh the page.

About Me

  • Hi, subscribe please. I'd like creative criticism.

Groups

[no groups]

Pulse

xxxL0LA has no pulse!...

Photostrip

[no photos]

Recommended

[no recommendations]

Chatboard (1)

  • spicycajun
    You should look at the new comment on my "men are stupid" blog....... LOL